Thursday, June 12, 2008

"Let us all be from somewhere"

Anyone who has known me for more than five minutes (or has read this blog for more than five posts) knows that for quite some time now I've been preoccupied with the ideas of home, place, and where I'm from.  I am from Mississippi.  That's where my people are, that's where I was raised.  This is something I'm prouder than ashamed of, though I've apologized for my Deep South roots too many times before.  No more.

When I moved away to college, I resented Arkansas until I loved it and began to resent Mississippi.  A bad thing indeed when one resents his home.  

When I finally became well-versed in Natural State, felt pride in calling myself Arkansan, I up and left that home behind for the long, skinny state of Tennessee.  Repeat resentment cycle.

I'm an East Tennessean now, by way of Central Arkansas.  My heart will always belong to Northwest Mississippi, as well as every other place I will live.  Let us all be from somewhere, the more somewheres the better.   I think, though, my somewhere will always be a nowhere place just south of the Tennessee state line.  

A Primer

I remember Michigan fondly as the place I go

to be in Michigan. The right hand of America

waving from maps or the left

pressing into clay a mold to take home

from kindergarten to Mother. I lived in Michigan

forty-three years. The state bird

is a chained factory gate. The state flower

is Lake Superior, which sounds egotistical

though it is merely cold and deep as truth.

A Midwesterner can use the word “truth,”

can sincerely use the word “sincere.”

In truth the Midwest is not mid or west.

When I go back to Michigan I drive through Ohio.

There is off I-75 in Ohio a mosque, so life

goes corn corn corn mosque, I wave at Islam,

which we’re not getting along with

on account of the Towers as I pass.

Then Ohio goes corn corn corn

billboard, goodbye, Islam. You never forget

how to be from Michigan when you’re from Michigan.

It’s like riding a bike of ice and fly fishing.

The Upper Peninsula is a spare state

in case Michigan goes flat. I live now

in Virginia, which has no backup plan

but is named the same as my mother,

I live in my mother again, which is creepy

but so is what the skin under my chin is doing,

suddenly there’s a pouch like marsupials

are needed. The state joy is spring.

“Osiris, we beseech thee, rise and give us baseball”

is how we might sound were we Egyptian in April,

when February hasn’t ended. February

is thirteen months long in Michigan.

We are a people who by February

want to kill the sky for being so gray

and angry at us. “What did we do?”

is the state motto. There’s a day in May

when we’re all tumblers, gymnastics

is everywhere, and daffodils are asked

by young men to be their wives. When a man elopes

with a daffodil, you know where he’s from.

In this way I have given you a primer.

Let us all be from somewhere.

Let us tell each other everything we can


Bob Hicock


4 comments:

Laura said...

Like you, I am preoccupied with place & what it means to be "from" somewhere. I am from Arkansas, from the Ozarks. That context has shaped every facet of me.

I had something else I wanted to say, but my family intervened. Sorry.

Abigail said...

you're right, we should all be from somewhere, it really is what makes us who we are. all of the interesting somewheres teach us new ways to look at the world.

Tim Sisk said...

Laura, what's it like to be from the Ozarks but raise your children away from them? Will they ever be able to say they are 'from' the Ozarks or just that their family is from there?

Generations on both sids of my family are from the same small town or surrounding towns in Mississippi. The Joneses and Sisks don't leave home, so it's strange for me, as one of them, to have lived places other than there. Even if those places aren't terribly far away.

Abby, I want to be where you're from!

Laura said...

It's funny... my 15 year old daughter identifies with the Ozarks and spends as much time as she can there. Although, really, she would have a hard time living there. She is not religious enough, not conservative enough. Too progressive, really, for their tastes. But she has friends there, and sees life there for what it is. Which means that she sees poor people (which an amazing number of people do not, even when they look right at them), and she identifies a bit with their plight.

The other kids don't really seem to care.

I am not sure that my kids are really "from" anywhere, and that really makes me sad. I have something that identifies me that my kids really don't have.